The First Mistake

It was working fine between us
Interest was mutual
But then I pushed just a little too hard
And apparently I asked too much
So that interest you had in me
Was locked inside you
Never to be acknowledged again.

This all unfolded with clarity
to eyes unblinded by what could be
But all my plans and dreams suddenly went awry
And though I knew it wouldn't work out
I felt a compelling need to have you back
Though in reality I never had you at all.

That was the first mistake.

We tried to pretend it hadn't happened at all
We tried to go back to "just friends"
But I knew that wasn't what I wanted
And I worked tirelesly to make you realize it too
In my eyes my plan was going swimmingly
and the final stages were underway
But when she sat on your lap I couldn't look at you.

And then I knew that your excuses were jut that
An excuse but not a fact
Because you'd chosen her while telling me
"I can't get involved right now"
And now in my mind I add what you should have said
That day you should have added "with you" to the end.

Lying was your first mistake.

Copyright 2006 by Danielle Westman. All rights Reserved.